Life is a Bitch.

Saturday, May 22, 2010'♥

have had such hectic & chaotic time with school n work
finally a weekend to myself after consecutive weeks n months of burnt weekend
done with 6 modules, 2 more to go.
school's starting in 4days time
final round and done with my dip!

time really flies.
1 more week to go n half a year will be gone.
much had happened in this past 1/2 year.
sad to say, all the bad n negative stuffs.
've seen n learn many more lessons in life.
but i guess its not rly that bad after all
when all these shits forces and made me grow further
yet im still surviving, strong enough on my own. =)

i've learnt to be even stronger then ever.
n i'll never let myself fall.
accept the fact that this world is way too practical n cruel
reality is a harsh fact u gotta come face to face with
life is full of betrayals
and ppl taking one another for granted is sucha norm

define friends.
i dont think i need jerks.
i deserve better then that.
define entertainers.
oh. many in my life.
n i swear they rly played their roles (as entertainers) duper well.
yay. absolutely.
ruthless is human's best friend.
n thats - just purely being myself.

though i've lost alot along the way.
it doesnt matter and nothing even matters now.
i'll strive for what i want for my future sake.
pick myself up fast, fight back the tears and tormenting struggles
whatever it takes,
bring it on.

the one and only contentment after all these years, is to have met YOU
thank you for bringing me joy and happiness
thank you for bringing me back to life
thank you for loving me
thank you for accepting me for who i am
you really make a big difference.
thank you for coming into my life
you matters and you r all that i need
i love you.
(n im missing you so badly) :(

Zombie@5/22/2010 11:33:00 PM

Friday, May 07, 2010'♥

Picture the future
no matter what it takes
how tough its gonna be
i must..
and
I CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i need lotsa oil pls
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
-.-
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Zombie@5/07/2010 12:01:00 AM

Monday, May 03, 2010'♥

even when harsh reality forces me out of this comfort zone im so used to having
i know, im not at all prepared for all these
still a child at heart
the fear is overwhelming

its time to grow up
its time to be an adult
i wish i could really do so
but who could understand the level of stress im facing

breaking apart inside myself, struggling so terribly hard
who can i turn to n lean upon on
where can i hide my fears and tell my frustrations to
its beyond what words could tell

insomnia.
tears.
agony.
tormenting.
extreme insanities.

i feel all so tied up, being trapped in a world thats so unknown.
where am i?
who am i?
what am i becoming of?

this feels worst then a fucking disabled.
let me break free from all these, please.

Zombie@5/03/2010 01:41:00 AM